Bo\u015fluk tahamm\u00fcl edilemez bir tasar\u0131m. Yokluk demek. Ayn\u0131 zamanda d\u0131\u015f kabu\u011fu olan bir varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n da i\u00e7i bo\u015f olabiliyor.<\/b><\/p>\n

Yani ille de g\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fclemeyen, alg\u0131lanamayan bir yan\u0131 olmak zorunda de\u011fil. Ancak i\u015f, ruhsal ayg\u0131ttaki bo\u015flu\u011fa, yoklu\u011fa gelince insano\u011flu kelimelere d\u00f6kemedi\u011fi bir duygu y\u00fck\u00fcyle eziliyor. \u0130nsano\u011flunun d\u00fcnyaya geldikten sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ya da varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla yer de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011fi ilk bo\u015fluk, do\u011fumdan sonra anne karn\u0131nda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u015fluktur.<\/p>\n

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O bo\u015fluk bizimdir ve bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 o bo\u015flu\u011fa yerle\u015fti\u011fi zaman karde\u015fimiz bile olsa ona haset etmememiz m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildir. Anne karn\u0131, s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131, haz dolu olu\u015fu ve amniyon s\u0131v\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7inde anneyle dolays\u0131z ileti\u015fim kurma olana\u011f\u0131yla yery\u00fcz\u00fcndeki as\u0131l kay\u0131p cennettir. Amniyon kesesi i\u00e7inde bir t\u0131rt\u0131l gibi kozalanmak, korunmak, suyun sevab\u0131n\u0131 tekrar tenimizde hissetmek var olu\u015fumuzun tek amac\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan i\u00e7i bo\u015f bir kal\u0131pt\u0131r. \u0130\u00e7indeki bo\u015flu\u011fu ruhuyla doldurmak ister. Ruhun bedene oturmas\u0131, hayat\u0131n i\u00e7imizden ge\u00e7ip giderken yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 depreme, s\u00fcrt\u00fcnmeye dayanma olas\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 artt\u0131racakt\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u0130nsano\u011flunun do\u011fumla beraber geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o bo\u015fluksuz, s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya ili\u015fkiyi t\u00fcm hayat\u0131 boyunca tekrar bulma aray\u0131\u015f\u0131 ikili ili\u015fkilerin en temel dinami\u011fi-dinamitidir. Her \u00e2\u015f\u0131k \u00e7ift, i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ge\u00e7en legolar gibi \u201cbir olmak\u201d, bir b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131 olmak, a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n imgesini oldu\u011fundan daha fazla y\u00fccelterek kendi i\u00e7i bo\u015f bedeninin kal\u0131b\u0131n\u0131 tamlamak, doldurmak ister.<\/p>\n

A\u015fk\u0131n ilk heyecan\u0131 ve hormonlar\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fcyle a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 \u015fi\u015fen imgeler, ikizini bulan ruhlar, teklik yan\u0131lsamalar\u0131, ili\u015fkideki \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n keskin kavisleriyle zamanla a\u015f\u0131n\u0131r, deri d\u00f6ker, ger\u00e7ek saflar\u0131na, s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131na \u00e7ekilir. Bunu kabullenmek istemeyen \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n \u00e2\u015f\u0131klar\u0131, a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck, g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc ve y\u00fcce g\u00f6rmek istedi\u011fi yanlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fka bir tarafa bas\u0131n\u00e7 uygulayarak, ezerek \u015fi\u015fkin g\u00f6stermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Her a\u015fk bo\u015funa s\u00f6nmez. Ya\u015fayan, beslenen birer canl\u0131 olan ili\u015fkiler y\u0131prand\u0131k\u00e7a ve gedikler, oyuntular art\u0131k sahte \u00e7abalarla kapanmayacak kadar kendini g\u00f6sterdik\u00e7e ba\u015fka taraftan bast\u0131r\u0131lan yanlar, a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 bas\u0131n\u00e7tan daha fazla dayanamayarak patlar ve ili\u015fki biter. Geleneksel boyunduruklar\u0131n nispeten daha s\u0131k\u0131 oldu\u011fu bizim gibi \u00fclkelerde bitemeyen ili\u015fkiler, o kapanmayan oyu\u011fu bo\u015fluksuz bir ili\u015fkiyle telafi etmek i\u00e7in \u201c\u00e7ocuk\u201d yapar.<\/p>\n

Bo\u015fluklar i\u00e7inde y\u00fczen, ezilen bir ili\u015fki, \u201cili\u015fkinin meyvesi\u201d ad\u0131 alt\u0131nda o ula\u015f\u0131lmaz cenneti, anne karn\u0131ndaki o ya\u015famsal sahneyi tekrarlamak, kendi gediklerini onarmak ya da onlar\u0131n intikam\u0131n\u0131 almak i\u00e7in yeni bir ruhsal tohum yani bebek meydana getirir. Bu bebek yeni, biricik bir varl\u0131k de\u011fildir(\u015f\u00fcphesiz olgun ili\u015fkilerin meyvesi olan bebekler de var), bir misyonu yerine getirmek, anne-baban\u0131n g\u00f6rmeye dayanamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u015fluklar\u0131 kapatan bir \u201cperde\u201d olmak i\u00e7in do\u011far.<\/p>\n

Kendi varolu\u015fsal bo\u015fluklar\u0131 yetmezmi\u015f gibi, anne-baban\u0131n da bo\u015fluklar\u0131na merhem olmaya, olduklar\u0131ndan daha \u015fi\u015fkin, daha geni\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeye, bir oyu\u011fa varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 doldururken di\u011fer k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131ndan sular\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ekilmesine tahamm\u00fcl etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. Ne g\u00fczeldir asl\u0131nda de\u011fil mi bir bebek? Saf ama kirlenmeye a\u00e7\u0131k, tanr\u0131sal ama savunmas\u0131z, masum ama yaral\u0131. Ne \u00e7ok i\u015fe yarar bir bebek.<\/p>\n

B\u00f6ylelikle anne-babadan oyuklar\u0131ndan, bo\u015fluklar\u0131ndan ka\u00e7may\u0131, perdelerden korkmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenir ki kendisi bizzat bir perdedir. O g\u00f6rmemek ve g\u00f6stermemek i\u00e7in do\u011fmu\u015ftur. Ancak her perdenin i\u00e7 y\u00fczeyi gibi bir yan\u0131yla bilir ger\u00e7e\u011fi, tan\u0131kt\u0131r \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ona.<\/p>\n

Ancak kimse varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ortadan kald\u0131racak o perdeyi a\u00e7ma edimine yana\u015fmaz. Perdeler korkutucudur. A\u015fk\u0131n k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 hal\u0131s\u0131 her ad\u0131mda alt\u0131 bo\u015f \u00e7\u0131kacak endi\u015fesiyle y\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr. \u0130li\u015fkiler, perdelerin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 \u00e7ekildi\u011fi, bo\u015fluklar\u0131n(yaralar\u0131n) g\u00f6sterilmeden sahte gardlar\u0131n al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131, gelene\u011fin tarif etti\u011fi \u00e2\u015f\u0131kla bir olman\u0131n-sen’in ben’e kar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n sahte tragedyas\u0131ndaki bir ili\u015fikli\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Birbirine yakla\u015famadan, perdelerini indiremeden, savrulurken tak\u0131l\u0131 kal\u0131nacak o tek dal\u0131n dibinde durarak paranoyan\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde bir ili\u015fiklik\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7i, ili\u015fkinin i\u00e7ini, ruhsal ayg\u0131t\u0131 de\u011fil, d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyay\u0131, d\u0131\u015ftaki g\u00f6zleri doyuran \u015fi\u015fkin bir araya geli\u015fler\u2026<\/p>\n

Bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131n sahibi de kendi i\u00e7indeki bo\u015flu\u011fa kelimelerden \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir perde \u00e7ekmektedir.<\/p>\n

Bo\u015flu\u011fun olmas\u0131 normaldir, do\u011fa sevmese de, \u00f6nemli olan neyle doldu\u011fudur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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